Thursday, August 9, 2012

Convicted

Three weeks. Twenty-one days. The time I have remaining until school starts up again.

Crazy!

Summers always tend to fly by, they seem like they go on for years when you're nine, but now? They feel like they lasted three weeks instead of three months. 

I'm excited to go back but challenged to do so many things different right now and during this coming school year. I feel motivated in a new and different way to make the best out of everything that comes my way during my senior year. 

I don't want to spend my days speaking poorly of others, participating in pointless and hurtful gossip, or listening to unnecessary swearing in. I feel purposeful.

This summer I spent a lot of time focusing on my faith and studying the Bible; last year I focused on going to all the dog stores in the greater Seattle area. This year, much more powerful! But I also feel worried as I try to figure out how to incorporate my new daily readings with She Reads Truth while balancing a full school load Senior year. 

Time has gone all too fast and I cannot believe that I will be going to college this time next year, it's incredibly bittersweet. I don't feel old enough to be writing my Senior Thesis or wise enough to go off to college, living on my own without my parents. It's terrifying!

Through all of the challenges that I will face this coming year I hope to remain solid in my faith, using the words of the Bible as my guide and not feed off stress from classmates. I was incredibly challenged by Proverbs 4 today and feel like I could spend months reading it over and over again in different translations, trying to get every ounce out of what those verses have to teach me. 

I pray that I continue to have this passion for the Word, even as the school year starts up and the college application process begins. It's my foundation and hopefully will aid me in being more grounded this year and stop comparing myself to others.

Twenty-one days is not a long time, but I'm excited to soak up every minute of these free days I have left. I want to make much of myself throughout these weeks and do what matters. Spend less time on Facebook and Twitter, more time reading the Bible and books that I'm dying to read. I want to have meaningful conversations and spend time with friends laughing so hard that my stomach hurts. 

I feel so convicted about how I should be spending these days and what I need to get done. The school year will start and I'll be swooped up in the stress in no time, but for now? I have all my family here to do nothing but spend time with me. Ample time to draft and prepare for college essays and to narrow down the never-ending list of colleges. To read my two books for my thesis and read so many more that challenge me to be stronger in my faith. I don't want to let a single one of these days pass by without making the most of them. I pray that I will be able to know exactly what He wants me to do with these days and give Him the glory of all that I do because without Him, I wouldn't be able to do any of it.

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